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Post by SilentDream on Nov 6, 2009 6:35:57 GMT -5
Today has been the best day I have had in weeks. At first my x was yelling at me, accusing me of ruining her life and my life. That had ,me down til today I found some answers and since I have blocked her out. I did a presentation on my poetry in class today. I was worried for a while that things would go wrong, however before I took a breath and did my best. The class did have a favorite, "4 Month Anniversery", one that I have become less of a fan of. Today, I have felt a rise......... I am getting over my x after all this time......... 5 months........ through this I have realized I have gone back to my old self.......... I am aiming for a better future, I can't wait for Friday! Geez.. well I'm glad you made it through the yelling bit and didn't take that nonsense to heart. That can be difficult but you are definitely getting through it! Congrats on your success on the presentation! You chose a piece that may be less and less of a favorite but it also contained so much emotion and a glimpse of what you were feeling and going through. They felt that and favorited it because of it being so real. Sometimes those kinds end up being our best pieces even if we don't want to read them ourselves too often. I have some of those. I'm borrowing a bit of your good vibes by the way. I'm a mess right now..
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Post by Xgriz on Nov 6, 2009 13:22:26 GMT -5
thank you During the presentation the class got to see your forum! I showed them my entry to the Picture challenge. I did some "suggestive selling" in the hopes that some might join.......(hehehehehehe) feel free to take any good vibes, right now I want to take it easy for a while.......
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Post by SilentDream on Nov 6, 2009 14:29:58 GMT -5
thank you During the presentation the class got to see your forum! I showed them my entry to the Picture challenge. I did some "suggestive selling" in the hopes that some might join.......(hehehehehehe) feel free to take any good vibes, right now I want to take it easy for a while....... awww are you serious? That's awesome that they got to see. The Picture Challenge is always a good "sell" lol. I had someone looking at the site last night and that's the first thing they took a peek at
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Post by Xgriz on Nov 6, 2009 21:28:42 GMT -5
I am serious.......... I think that person might have been one of my classmates or teacher that wanted to learn more!
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Post by Leia on Nov 7, 2009 12:14:42 GMT -5
the best soy milkshake ever....... that is all
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Post by SilentDream on Nov 10, 2009 11:02:09 GMT -5
I caught myself closing the house up, as usual, and made the effort to do the opposite. Sounds like a small thing but in the fall and winter less sunlight affects me and I've been closing up the house and make it even darker and more like a cave. So, today the blinds got raised... the curtains got opened. All that good stuff. It's a little cloudy out but letting what sun is out inside helped. Alot
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Post by SilentDream on Nov 10, 2009 14:28:27 GMT -5
omg. I'm so watching the original V today. Getting ready for the new version that's coming on tonight
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Post by Xgriz on Nov 11, 2009 9:29:36 GMT -5
I saw a classmate who has been very sick in my class. I felt bad for them, I gave them their homework.......... I left class early, we were doing review that if I stayed it wouldn't have been much use. I went to the christian club, saw part of an interesting movie we are watching. It gave me alot of thought......... I wound up comming home and getting ready for work. When it came, I went in and a manager was happy to see me. Appearently 2 people called off....... When I went on break, I saw some friends and seeing that the line was long, I went out for a smoke. My friend saw me and asked me why I smoked. For roughly 5 mins, I explained 5 months of my life that they never knew. They argued with me that I shouldn't esp with my health factors. I did come at them with that I wanted "quality over quantity". In the end, I lost, which means that I am working on quitting....... I did stay longer at work, I was supposed to be out by 9pm, however I got out this morning:bonus hours.
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Post by Xgriz on Nov 13, 2009 23:58:07 GMT -5
Today was a good day to laugh at. I got a haircut by a dear friend who accidently cut my ear! They got nervous, fearing somewhat of the worst. I was calm, I even acted like it never happened. I can take any kind of beating!lol! I got ready for work, today was going to be the 3rd time I went to work on a friday the 13th. What I find funny is that everytime it has happened, I have wound up doing an 8 hour shift which was the case today. It was crazy, I was mostly lost where to go and it seemed that I was getting nothing done which drove me nuts! Later that night, I was asked by a customer " Is your name Lacy?" I said, " No, do I look female?"
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Post by SilentDream on Nov 14, 2009 7:24:31 GMT -5
I hear you about working on nights like that. Friday 13th wasn't my day though. I never worked on Halloween night/day. Ever! I think that came from being out and about one year and this dude had on a gorilla costume and was running up on ppl in the parking lot. Some jerks use the day as an excuse and I'm not curious enough to see who's joking and who's not. Then I ended up in banking and though signs were posted to not come into the bank with masks, ppl don't read and I was not taking the chance. Sooooo, yup. I always made sure I wasn't scheduled to work that day and if I was I would call out. lol I'll come back with a "why my day was wonderful when I have one of those. btw, I have one of my own haircut stories But I had a crush on the person that let me cut their hair and they knew it. Hmmmmmmmmmm........
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Post by Xgriz on Nov 18, 2009 9:12:45 GMT -5
Got up early, helped a friend out with some math stuff. She wasn't feeling that confident in herself so I gave her my old " You can't fail, you are going to succeed!" speech. Went to work and spoke with a manager about next week............ appearently I got more than what I wanted........... I had wanted either tuesday or wednesday of that week off to head to Grand Rapids and I wanted my birthday off (thanksgiving), along with the weekend. After some talking, I foundout I had the weekend off however in order to have wed off, I would have to make the manager my new favorite manager. I selled out, trading a previous fav manager for another one! lol! I later treated myself to some good pizza and ate so much I almost got sick while I was on break!
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Post by SilentDream on Nov 18, 2009 19:25:38 GMT -5
clarity, sweet clarity...
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Post by Xgriz on Nov 23, 2009 16:55:04 GMT -5
Went to church yesterday. It would be the first time in 5 years....... the service was wonderful. My friend, who drove this massive van drove it like it was a small race car, lol! I was giving her my opinion, esp that I normally do 75 whereas she does 85. I also lectured her on that tires are meant to take speeds up to 75, not 85! *note I am not endorsing do 75 on the highway, rather I am just admiting my own faults*. The preacher there is a interesting fellow. He believes in preaching for solutions, rather than give you a 5 page essay on why this world is f&^%ed up. Honestly, that is what we need, less talk more action. Where I was, I felt welcome and everyone seemed to like me..... I got some cds and some info that I need to get around to reading, I am hoping to head here more often despite it being over 45 mins away from home....... Anyways, me going after my friends driving must have been going on for a reason. I nagged at her repeatedly for me to drive, I for some reason had a not so good feeling if she drove. I felt that a voice greater than my own was telling me that if I didn't drive, I would be SOL. After arguing for over 5 mins, I had it my way........... but part of me felt it was wrong. Later, someone pulled out and almost hit the van I was in..... thankfully I swerved, preventing an accident with that person. My friend went out to yell at them, which from the description I was given they were stoned. My friend later admited, had she been driving they would have hit us, I would have been at the hospitol, or I would have been possibly dead...... not to mention I also saved a relative of hers and 2 little kids under 10.......... who figured I could prevent great harm of us........
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Post by Leia on Nov 24, 2009 19:45:00 GMT -5
I'm getting there. Slowly but surely.
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Post by SilentDream on Dec 4, 2009 12:33:47 GMT -5
Ive been taking these herbal supplements for about a week now and I can tell a difference in my overall mood... how things haven't been overwhelming me so much. Plus I had to start taking something to help me sleep and that has started taking effect. Finally. Sipping tea like an old lady but, eh... whatever works. right?
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